Dear Belle and Irene,
Happy Birthday to both of you? I am SO sorry you and Belle are not able to spend it together. We can only assume there is a reason even though we may not understand it. However, that doesn’t take away your pain. How ironic that you both celebrate birthdays on the same day???
I am not sure when you started sharing Belle’s adventures. I have really only followed the last few months. As her time grew closer, I was surprised at my attachment to your situation. I began to feel anxiety with each posting, wondering when the news would come that her time had ended. As she had passed her expected time-frame I began to forget her days were limited. When the email finally came, I felt so sad and just cried, and cried, and cried. Every time an animal/pet dies I cry for the loss of ALL those who’ve left, particularly my own. I cry at the prospect of losing either of my own 2 Chihuahuas. I was surprised at my reaction to this beautiful pet that I had never met, only known through social media. What a story she had. And most of it so cruel. At the hands of merciless people who cared nothing about her. And then she is rescued. Finally, someone took her away from the hell she had been living. Then her battle with eye disease, and Glaucoma, and losing her sight. Really? When is enough, enough? Then the final punishment. Cancer. Hadn’t she been tested enough???? The one thing that became very clear to me was how much she was LOVED, particularly by you Irene. The picture of the 2 of you, with you holding her, your head down, and you kissing her head. Just told it all. I can’t help but wonder if that picture was taken in her final moments, or even after she had passed. Either way – – – she was loved. For the next week I was in a place I couldn’t figure out and then it finally occurred to me, I was still feeling the effects of Belle leaving all of us. Again I asked, how this little girl could have such an impact on me? Those that know me, know it takes a lot for me to let anyone in. Some how, Belle got in. I am saddened and angry that she had to endure all that she did. I’m angry at every human who treats an animal the way she was. I am angry that God continued to put her through hell. And yet, she persevered and went on. I can only guess her adoption by you was reward for all she had endured. The long road she fought in getting to you. Despite my anger, I am so thankful that Belle was able to know Love. A warm comfortable bed. Food in her belly. And support from literally thousands of followers. I choose to believe that she is somewhere, running either on the beach or a flower-filled field with the sun shining on her face. Her eyesight restored with beautiful big brown eyes that see forever. Her body rid of any disease. A spring in her step, and the zest for life that has always been there. I hope for you Irene, that your happy memories take over and your pain diminishes and you find peace remembering the life you gave her. Remembering that You were responsible for her happiness and literally her life, these past few years. Most of all, when the time is right, I hope you will afford another unfortunate fur-being the opportunity to know the same things that Belle did. I have NO DOUBT that Belle would like the same thing. You are a beautiful person, with so much love to share – as is evidenced by your large family.
I would also encourage you to share your last days, minutes, seconds of Belle’s time. I firmly believe that “funerals” are for the living. They are to help us accept the absence and loss of loved ones. I would ask that you afford all of us the opportunity to go through this process. It has been difficult to read these daily adventures of Belle and then suddenly have her gone. I think this would help all of us tremendously in obtaining the closure that is so important to move on.
Irene, I wish you all the best. Know your broken heart is shared by so, so many. You and Belle have brought together a huge group of people who share a common bond – – – the Love of Animals! Thank you.
Lebanon, New Hampshire, USA